So... I cut all my hair off.
Yup.
I did.
All of it.
With one of those buzz-cut machines.
And I want to tell you the backstory, because it isn't really about hair.
It started, rather unglamorously, with lice.
Super-Lice - the kind that laugh in the face of any product you throw at
them. Six weeks of itching, of chemical treatments, of having my hair pinned up and away from the world.
Six weeks of fighting something I couldn't seem to win.
And then, standing at a T-junction, I asked myself the Love Question:
If I loved myself, what would I choose to do now?
And the answer surprised me.
Have fun. Cut your hair off. Have a good time.
Boy did that give me a lot of head chatter!
I can't just do that! How will I look? What will people say? It's not ok to do something like this...
I really had some big processing to do to overcome the head talk.
And then I did it.
At the New Moon. On the floor of my friend's house. With candles and clippers and a lot of nervous laughter.
And what I realised in that moment - and what I want to offer you today - is this:
Sometimes the thing that's been annoying you, challenging you, or making your life uncomfortable… is actually trying to take you somewhere.
Somewhere you would never have gone without it.
Somewhere your critical head talk stops you from allowing yourself.
The Super-Lice were a teacher. A strange, itchy, deeply inconvenient teacher. But a
teacher nonetheless.
So I want to ask you gently...
What has been frustrating you lately? What have you been resisting? What is ripe, and ready, and quietly asking you to be a little bit brave?
What is your inner critic telling you isn't possible - even though you want it.
You don't have to shave your head. It doesn't have to be radical.
But maybe there's something that's been calling you. A decision you've been circling.
A change that feels equal parts terrifying and exciting.
That feeling? That's worth paying attention to.
The head chatter - that's something to learn to manage.
I made a video sharing the whole story - the before, the cutting, the after - and all the layers of meaning that came with it for me.
You can see my new look here → Why I Cut All My Hair Off
And if you're in a season of big inner change, of stepping out of the old and into something new...
Don't leave yourself alone.
Come and do it with us.
This month we are focusing on How to Love Yourself in Your Head Talk.
It's an important month here in The Portal of Permission.
Hope you join us.
With a bare head and a full heart,
Eilat
If you loved yourself, what daring thing might you finally say yes to now?
