I was talking with my friend Amy, yesterday and complaining about how lately I’ve been feeling some confusion because my purpose in life feels more ambiguous than it used to feel, clear and well defined.

For so long, I’ve had money goals defining my major definite purpose. Freedom has always meant X amount of residual income and always knowing what that next number was, has given me so much clarity, drive and determination.

I find myself in a space in life where goals to make more money have lost so much of the driving force they used to have. (poor me, I know… but still, it still feels like a bit of a problem).

If don’t have a money goal, how do I lead by example and encourage others?

Is there something wrong if I don’t have a money goal?

Will it be trackable? Measurable?

Will I be completely lost in my daily activities?

I told Amy that I know a big part of my purpose is to help others be free, grow and rise up to be the best they can be.

But that’s ambiguous right? That’s not measurable…

Thus goes the inner dialogue I have with myself.

Amy reminded me that Wayne Dyer never set any goals.

He was financially abundant, and helped so many people by just being who his heart called him to be.

She also mentioned that receiving “soul pay” is an indication that you’re living in purpose - regardless of what the numbers say, and I feel deep down, this is true.

Anyway, tonight Jason, told us of his success, which of course is his, and I don’t take any credit for it.

Success is always that way. We create it, ourselves, with some occasional guidance from mentors, and products and communities and systems, etc… it’s always ours, and others can play a role in inspiring it, or part of it, to manifest. (But we are always the one’s doing the manifesting.)

When I realized that Jason had created this huge level of freedom for his family, I was so happy.

Happy for him, happy for his family, and happy that I, along with many others in our community, have been able to play some of those small roles, and help contribute to his creation of success.

Maybe as confused and ‘ambiguous’ and yes, even lost and conflicted on the inside as I sometimes feel, I’m somehow still, managing to do a few things right.

Maybe that’s true for all of us.

We had another member come out tonight too. His name is Dave… and Dave told us how he’s working full time, driving the country for his job, and somehow, not making excuses and still finding a way to move his freedom forward.

He told us of how helpful our community has been for him in this process.

I saw the fire of freedom and determination and commitment in his eyes, and heard the sincerity and gratitude in his voice for where he’s at now, and for where he’s going.

I was reminded of the responsibility, I’ve felt inside my heart for many years now. The responsibility to treasure, honor and support the commitment people are making into their futures, and into us, by default.

Maybe I am fulfilling my purpose in being there, and helping to continue to provide a safe space for people to trust, believe, dream and build in.

And maybe none of that has to do with how much I continue to grow (or don’t grow) my own income.

Success can be complicated, and there are many ways in which we can judge ourselves and sometimes be hard on ourselves as to how we’re measuring up.

I guess the point here, if there is one, is to not be too hard on yourself.

Sometimes it’s ok to feel a bit lost, sometimes it’s ok to not have all the answers, and sometimes, just showing up, and being the best light you can, with whatever the heck your dealing with in the moment, can be a measure of success.

And odds are, with all the ways your inner critic may tell you that your ”messing up”, there are probably many ways you’re not, and that you’re actually doing good and showing up perfectly.

Thanks Jason, Dave and Amy, for the great reminders today, and for shining the lights of you, into my life.

And thank you Friend, for staying subscribed to my email list and for reading these messages I send out in an effort to add some sort of positive difference to your life and business journey.

All the best,

Paul