Hi there Friend,
It feels very much like my last few emails to you have begun with some variation of "it's been a while since you heard from me and this is why."
Maybe like you, I started this year with big plans and dreams and goals.
I spent a lot of money on my dream holiday to cruise to Hawaii with my bestie to celebrate turning 60 and over 40 years of friendship.
I invested a lot of money in a 12 month business Mastermind group and coaching that I knew would help me get more focused and help me create the things I want to launch into the world.
I had changed my diet to carnivore and was feeling the best I had ever felt in my life and my body was finally at a healthy normal weight and I was loving wearing all my new clothes that I had to buy.
This was my year and I was going to get things done!
Then Covid came along and we all watched with shock and disbelief as one by one, countries started closing their borders and our economies began shutting down.
The cruise was cancelled. Third world problems and all, it was still a loss as I only realised how much I was hanging out for that vacation until it wasn't an option any more.
I started my Mastermind kicking goals and getting things done and then, my health began to rapidly decline and my gut began to shut down and I had no energy or motivation to get anything done at all.
That began 3 months of my own personal Hell that ended with me in the ICU, dangerously ill, underweight and physically frail for the first time in my life with a new diagnosis of Type 1 diabetes and a massive change to my daily life.
I had to cancel my clients until my health improved so I was living off my savings and the financial support of my family again.
I felt just like I had 6 years before when Hashimoto's came along and made me physically and cognitively disabled, only with an even scarier disease to manage and work through to accepting.
It felt like every goal I had set myself and everything I wanted to achieve and enjoy this year had been ripped away and nothing went the way I had planned.
It felt like it was all a complete waste of time.
So I am wondering Friend if 2020 has felt that way for you as well.
That you are facing the end of the year with your list of all the things that didn't happen, all the dreams that didn't come true, all of the things that you missed out on.
The people you may have lost. The significant milestones in your life that couldn't be celebrated or shared. The loss of jobs and income and security and the certainty that we had before Covid hit the world.
In the face of all of that, the reality is that we are lucky to still be here, let alone get anything of note done, because just getting through one day at a time this year has been a pretty herculean task in itself.
I am choosing to give myself permission to coast through the end of this year, without putting any additional pressure on myself at all.
So if that means that blog posts don't get written and podcasts don't get recorded and that I don't send my emails, then that is the way it is and I am ok with that.
Life is not about what we get done.
It's not about the things ticked off a never ending "to do" list.
Life is about moments and enjoying the good ones and getting through the tough ones as best we can.
I am still taking on new clients, still loving my work as much as I ever have, but anything "extra" is not a priority for me just now.
I think that what 2020 has shown me most clearly is that being is so much more important than doing because what we can do is so often out of our control.
Being at peace, finding moments of joy, giving myself time and space and permission to stop and coast and just do what I can is what I choose for myself right now.
Maybe it's something you can choose for yourself as well.
No matter what happened this year Friend you really have done the best that you could in that moment, whatever that moment was.
Give yourself permission to stop measuring your worth by what you think you should have gotten done.
When it comes down to it, who you are and how you show up for yourself and others in the world is so much more important that ticking things off a list.
And if you want to start 2021 with the right emotional tools to help you deal with the uncertainty and the right therapy to help you eliminate the trauma and overwhelm then I want to invite you to book your FREE Discovery Session with me online here.
Sending you big hugs,
Kerry
P.S. I was recently interviewed by Danna and Ginny of Thyroid Refresh TV and it was so wonderful to talk with them about all of the emotional issues of chronic illness.
You can watch or listen to my interview/podcast by clicking on the image below, which will take you through to the links.
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