| Hey Friend,
I have been feeling really tired for the past month which didn't feel right at all.
I even had to take my first "get through the day" afternoon nap this week, which I have not had to do for the past 2 years because I was feeling so exhausted.
I had planned and paid for a night out at a sky gazing event, which was something I have wanted to do for a while, be out in the night with a high powered telescope and look at the stars.
But when Friday night rolled around, I just didn't want to go.
I had zero energy and motivation and just staying home on the couch with Netflix and an early night was really all I felt good for.
I got the results of my thyroid hormone blood test back this week and my tiredness started making sense because my T3 had dropped quite a bit and my T4 was significantly lower as well.
While it was good to see that there was an actual reason for why I felt so tired and flat, it was also really disappointing because for the past two years I have been able to reduce my NDT (Natural Desiccated Thyroid which is the thyroid hormone replacement I use) down by a third, which was proof to me of my body healing.
It's easy to get lost in wondering why this is happening, but the truth is, I will probably never know.
Life with chronic illness is an endless experience of riding the emotional waves as they come.
The waves of grief, the waves of disappointment and the waves of anger and frustration and "why me"?
I choose to stay focussed on the positives and see and appreciate how far I have come and make the most of how good I can feel these days but there are times when I have to admit to the fact that being chronically ill sucks!
It's always there, slapping you in the face and reminding you that life is different, you are not the same as you were and yes, you are stuck with these crappy diseases and managing them for the rest of your life.
I am not even close to being superwoman and in the spirit of "keeping it real" I have my moments when it all feels too hard and wishing with all my heart that Hashimoto's and Celiac disease and Antiphosopholipid syndrome had never come into my life.
I shed my tears, work off my anger and give myself the grace of feeling my feelings and wait for them to change.
I know that they will change because change is the only sure and certain thing in life.
So how do you deal when being chronically ill sucks?
- Vent it! Let loose how you feel to an understanding friend, share it in a safe, supportive group, or say it out loud with feeling to yourself. The old saying "you have to feel it to heal it" is very true. Suppressing feelings leads to more stress and more potential inflammation.
- Refuse to judge yourself. Calling yourself "weak" or criticising yourself for feeling how you feel is not only completely unnecessary, it's cruel, bullying behaviour. When you feel down, afraid and vulnerable, you need comfort and support, not shame and blame.
- Stop trying to do it alone. The grief, frustrations and fears that go along with chronic illness can be deep, complex and overwhelming. Investing in professional support can be the absolute best thing you can do for yourself, especially if you are living with unresolved trauma or stuck in a toxic relationship.
So, I am taking my extra NDT, planning earlier nights and looking at how I can up my nutrient density because it has not been as good as it could be, even though it's AIP compliant.
If you are riding a wave right now and feeling overwhelmed and hopeless Friend, remember, it is normal to get that way every once in a while.
Let's face it, chronic illness is tough, unrelenting and it just plain sucks and in those moments, accepting your feelings and giving yourself as much comfort as you possibly can will help you come out the other side of the wave.
But if you feel like you are drowning, if you are stuck in the waves and everything feels hopeless, exhausting and too much to bear, then book your FREE Discovery Session with me Now!
For the month of November if you are new client who chooses to work with me, you will get a FREE session added to your program.
I would love to help you take control of your health, life and happiness so that things can be as good for you as they possibly can.
Warm wishes and big hugs
Kerry | 
