I took time to reflect on my own around needing to be right during this transit.
"There was a time when I thought clarity meant having all the answers. When I confused certainty with truth and performance with presence.
I would hold back from speaking unless I could be sure I'd say it perfectly. I waited until the message had been polished, rehearsed, made acceptable. And when I did speak? I’d watch people’s reactions more than I listened to my own inner resonance.
Looking back, I can see it clearly: I was trying to earn permission to speak. But there’s a deeper current behind why.
I have Chiron in Gate 17.5 in my Design chart. It’s not something I often speak about publicly, but it weaves through everything I do.
Gate 17 carries the energy of perspective, ideas, and belief structures. Line 5 wants to universalize insight—to share what it sees in a way that helps others gain clarity. But Chiron here means there’s a wound beneath the gift. For me, it showed up as mental rigidity disguised as high standards. I had to be insightful. Had to sound credible. Had to get it right.
Except what I really craved wasn’t to be right. It was to feel safe enough to be heard.
And that’s where the shift began.
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