I want to tell you about Maya.
In case it helps you feel better about you.
And more hopeful.
Because that's how it has made me feel!
Here's her story.
Maya has always felt like she didn’t quite fit in.
She always felt too sensitive. Too intense. Too easily overwhelmed.
Too much - and somehow also not enough.
She made jokes about her scattered brain and messy to-do lists, but inside she actually felt she was somehow broken.
She was always the one who noticed too much, cared too deeply, and burned out quietly while still smiling on the outside.
She works full-time in a helping profession, is raising two neurodivergent children, navigating invisible health challenges, and has to constantly manage anxiety and overwhelm.
Her therapist has called her “high-functioning,” but she told me,
"It's more like 'high-masking.' I’ve spent so long pretending and contorting myself for everyone else that I can’t tell the difference between what I need and what’s expected of me anymore.”
She is brilliant. Empathic. Creative. Kind.
But the world has taught her to doubt her value.
So she has kept herself small.
Maya joined The Portal of Permission two months ago, when we started, hoping to find a community that would help her keep going.
"Then I arrived in The Portal and first thing I heard you say was,
“You have permission to exist.”
It cracked something in me open.
And you just keep saying it!"
We're only two months in and she tells me she is starting to:
Notice her needs without guilt.
Honour her sensory boundaries.
Listen to her truth without needing to justify it.
Rest - not to earn more energy, but because she matters already.
"I've stopped apologising for being 'weird' or 'difficult.'
Now I'm calling it my 'magic' instead.
I always thought I was a problem.
But I'm not. I'm just designed this way and I'm allowed to be like this.
Somehow I don't see my sensitivity as so much of a flaw like I did before.
I can see that it's actually my compass.”
I got tears in my eyes when she told me all this.
I feel so grateful that we have all created this safe space together.
You know, Maya hasn’t suddenly “fixed” herself.
She's not different to how she was before.
She’s simply begun loving herself differently.
That’s what we do in this membership.
We remember how to be kind to ourselves again.
We come home to our truth.
We learn real tools to give ourselves permission to exist.
It's a beautiful thing.
And I have good news!
The founding members and I have now settled the space enough to welcome new members in.
Ta Da!!
The doors of The Portal of Permission are now finally open again.
So if you also want to stop masking - not just to the world, but also to yourself - you are welcome to join us.
You can sign up HERE.
It's a monthly subscription and you can cancel anytime.
No contract, no obligation.
Only self-love, deep truth and permission to be you.
And a really beautiful, loving community of sensitive souls with big hearts.
The world needs your magic.
Don't hide it or apologise for it.
Whether or not you join The Portal, I hope you choose to let yourself shine.
If you loved yourself, how would you allow yourself to be you today?
