I watched 4 episodes in a row of DC's Legends of Tomorrow; read just one more chapter of the next Ava Lee novel; listened to one more episode of FranceInter; and one from the What Works podcast.
In other words, even though I had practically the entire day free to work on my book (coming soon), I didn't.
When I was a kid, adults around me called me lazy because I liked to read a lot. What they didn’t seem to know or observe was that I also liked to play hide and go seek, Ollie Ollie Oxen Free, and ride my bike.
I always had an active mind and an active body. I wanted to go go go. Many of the places I wanted to go I could only go through books.
I always objected inside to being called lazy just because I read a lot. My mind was so active.
Yet I internalized that shaming that the calling me lazy held.
It seemed to really mean:
-- You should be doing something. (As if I wasn’t doing anything.)
-- You are just sitting on your butt, doing nothing. And doing nothing is bad.
-- You have to be doing something to have worth in this world.
I’m sure the adults around me were just concerned for my future survival and safety. How was this girl going to take care of herself if all she did was sit on her butt and read books and scribble bad poetry?
Guess what? I make a living sitting on my butt reading and writing books. So there, adults!
Now that I am adult (pretty sure!) I know I need to inhale as much creativity as I exhale my stories. Probably more, since I have half a dozen stories simmering on the back burner and I’m feeding those too — in addition to the story I’m actively working on.
All this to say: We are not lazy. Humans are quite industrious. And have always been so.
“We are always doing the best we can, given the resources we have.”
This idea (paraphrased) comes to me by way of NLP Marin and the Master NLP Practitioner training I took.
This translates for me into: I am always doing my best, in any given moment.
I don't think you're being lazy or procrastinating when you're not writing. I think you're taking care of yourself in the best way you know how.
“We are always doing the best we can, given the resources we have.”
If you want to be writing, but aren't, look to the resources you may need.
Do you need support? Look to the ineffable, Divine, or ask a loved one for a hug, and tell yourself, "You got this." Or maybe you need to eat, or sleep, or feed the creative well.
We rely on our creativity to guide us as we write. We need to trust this invisible, mysterious force, every step of the way, to guide us on what word to choose, which direction to take our story, what to cut, what to add...
So when it comes to not writing, taking a break, having some Nothing time, can you trust your creativity then too? Can you trust yourself to take care of yourself?
Let me know your thoughts on the topic of laziness, procrastination, and creativity.
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